k
3 days left
haiz
i mean like
i noe tt the day wld come
but then
i really really she bu de
n there's really nothing much i can do bout it
but
haiz
its so sad la
i wonder how m i supposed to tell them
its like
i dunno
feel like i'm letting them down???
i noe my mom's not happy woth my choice
she makes it very clear
everytime the topic is brought up
she wld sure say smthing bout it
showing her displeasure
i noe
i can tell
she's not happy with my choice
she's disappointed with me for making my choice
she thinks tt i'm making a wrong choice
a stupid choice
so does practically everyone else
but wat do they know
did they even go there?
no they did
all they did was hear wat others say
it may not be true la
but they just believe
so now my mom keeps making me feel so bad everytime she talks about it
then she says its my choice
since its my life after all n tt i shld be happy with it
but then
she always seem to want to control my life
not letting me make the choices i want to
n now when i do
she gives me grief on it
how the hell m i supposed to be happy with my life n my choice when she forever gives me grief on it
how!!!
haiz
this sux
i really dunno
will i end up regretting my choice???
i dunno
i'm v heisitant bout it
i'm v scared actually
wat if it really is a wrong choice
i've already made many many many wrong choices
choices tt wil always come back to "haunt" me in a way
choices tt i will remember for life
haiz
i really dunno
wat if this is really a wrong choice???
haiz
i'm so confused
i'm so fan by all these
i dunno
all the stupid thoughts in my head are making my emotions all jumbled up too
its like my emotions are haywired too
just tt it only goes down into the pits
haiz
this is so saddening
damn i feel like crying